scarletstarlet

2011-06-16T22:52:00.001+08:00

cos you always love me even when i do the most nonsensical things at times...

GE 2011

2011-05-09T00:18:00.000+08:00

the hustle and bustle in sg due to the recent ge 2011 has led to many different opinionated voices and viewpoints. some strongly against the other, while some are completely clueless about what is going on.

i grew up in a particular estate and in my estate, almost every child grew up making minor politics-related decisions. since young, we have to decide on which side to support, whose activities to attend and yada yada. we grew up under such environment, where we know that our choice can lead to a lot of repercussions, whether we like it or not.

and in here, there is this man, who stood by bravely for the last 27 years. he, is not just a leader in the estate. he was the people's voice, and a dear servant leader to all. despite being frail and more physically challenged than ever, he still turned up at the town council to work and serve as before. this is the true mark of a leader - always putting the interest of people ahead of himself.

this time round, it is indeed a pity. and we people here, pray for a miracle. we give you our utmost support, mr chiam.

2011-03-12T23:38:00.002+08:00

i'm only 20+ and i'm getting forgetful, almost senile. don't worry, i'm functioning fine. just that i think i really am senile sometimes...

anyway, Japan needs miracle from God. let's all pray for the people there. Amen

2011-03-11T19:06:00.002+08:00

I feel like crying when I think about it.

I really want it so badly.

Somebody buy it for me please.

I love you

2011-03-06T22:10:00.003+08:00

Before you, I was in a perplexed state of mind about love and meeting The One. I can never ever tell what it means to be together with The One. I met a few boys and was in a couple of relationships. Being loved, being hurt, and never healed from some of those scars they've left me with. Then I met you. Not only did I just meet you, I fell in love with you and was immersed with your shower of neverending love and patience. You always love and dote on me like a princess. I'm glad to have found you, very in fact. I knew you are going to be The One for me since the very first time I met you. Indeed, you're going to be The One. Thank you for every little thing you've done. Nearing 1 year old and everyday still feels like a Valentine's Day with you.

Old friends

2011-03-05T20:20:00.002+08:00

There are some friends whom I miss. They came, they left, they might return and they might not. Our differences in life has led us to undertake various routes. To each his own, thats what they say. I will keep all the fond memories dearly in my heart. Hope that we might cross paths again to know each other better than before. Here, I leave you with my best wishes.

2011-02-25T02:20:00.000+08:00

I spent my teens wondering why but i spend my young adulthood thinking about how

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Valentine

2011-02-17T01:18:00.001+08:00

Loving someone can be quite fear injecting as you began to realise that a major part of your life revolves around someone, that special one.

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Life lessons 101

2011-02-15T01:34:00.000+08:00

Okay, maybe this is indeed the start of Scarlett's life lesson 101. However, it is my deepest wish that i don't have 101 lessons in life. (since I figured that it would also mean that i have to go through a lot to write till... 101)

I guess one lesson which i learnt the hard way (and a very tough one in fact) is...

Be careful of what you wish for.

Sounds like a statement taken from a horror flick, well, maybe mine's less scary, or at least i hope.

I can still vividly remember those days when i earnest pray to whoever that is up there (cos i had no belief then) for a colourful and eventful life that the most dramatic things will always happen to me. Such that if one day, i ever look back at my life, it will be one of the most colourful painting in this world.

You're right, i got it and i regretted it.

I soon discovered that it has led to so much repercussions and it seems that this wish of mine isn't wearing its effects so soon...

God, help me!

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2011-01-30T20:34:00.001+08:00

I will love it forever and ever until I die or something. Please let me get it ):

2011-01-26T17:49:00.002+08:00

i wish i can find a hole to hide. to hide from everything that reminds me that i'm at my weakest. and finally when i've decided it's time to come out, i come out to feel my worries have been soothed away and being someone entirely new.

Last day of 2010

2010-12-31T10:41:00.002+08:00

2010 was worth remembering. I felt true happiness, something which I have not felt it for the longest time.

Will 2011 be just as joy-filled? I don't know. I have my doubts for odd years. A mixture of superstitions and bad experience tells me that I have to beware of 2011. As you may have guessed, odd years for me have never been great. With it coming in another few hours time, my anxiety is creeping in and secretly consuming me.

2010 has been far too awesome. Sometimes I worry that these things are too good to be true. I am cautiously guarding against these perfect moments. Yes, I may be too pessimistic and skeptical. However, more often than not, there's always another side to things. You know, when there's up, there's down, when there's bad, there's good... it's that sort of things.

Then again, with God's help, nothing too big I can't overcome. So 2011, bring it on!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

p/s: You've made my 2010

2010-12-26T23:45:00.003+08:00

behind every pair of eyes tells a story of tears and fears.
and every one of us needs no reminder for these scars.

smells like term break

2010-12-21T01:49:00.002+08:00

yet again, another year has crept passed and in just 10 days time, it'll be the start of a new year.

the upcoming year is going to be an exciting, especially when i'm transiting into another phase in life.

God bless and peace out.

2010-12-15T21:04:00.001+08:00

i really just want to spend one afternoon staring into space

2010-11-12T00:17:00.002+08:00

when dark clouds enveloped the sky, thunders starts roaring, and when the night has already creeped in, your thoughts are usually at its scariest - it consumes your mind from the inside out.

does the realization of sunrise in a few more hours helps? i wish life can be just as the same - restarting over and over again.

2010-11-08T08:26:00.001+08:00

cos i can be myself when i'm with him, i'm no longer bitter over anything and i wasn't driven by the inner psychotic woman in me.

2010-08-28T02:29:00.002+08:00

2.34am: in a pool of thoughts.

2010-08-15T00:17:00.002+08:00

what a paradoxical life we're all living - things can make you, may well be those that can break you. you struggle, you experience pain, to be stronger and to experience joy. with every extremity, comes a paradox.i'm perplexed by such degree of complexity.

2010-07-27T08:59:00.002+08:00

These days, it gets so bad it makes me mad.

Mad is being sleep deprived perpetually for the last month or so. Mad is when you have 5 projects to hand in within 1.5 weeks. Mad is you have 4 project groups asking for a meeting in a day. Mad is when stress gets out of control you nearly ate 3 plates of rice. Mad is when you start to seriously think of quitting school. Mad is when you realised you make somebody who isn't supposed to be angry, angry. Mad is me, a marketing student in NYP.

Really, I need a goddamned sleep.

2010-07-16T20:56:00.002+08:00

As I sit amidst in this hideout of mine (which is surprisingly a lil' noisy tonight), tucked away in the furthest corner of town, I realised that I've attained such tranquility in my heart and life. The bustling, colourful world out there no longer matter, peace and serenity is really what I want. Definitely got to thank God for everything there is in my life right now.

You took away and gave back, I've learnt and have grown. All of which I have now did not come easy, I greatly appreciate and will cherish to the best I can. Thank you, Lord.

2010-07-13T19:28:00.003+08:00

Back to this little virtual space of mine to spend a little time out of International Business (the most dreadful module of the semester).

A talk with K made me realised how naive (and stupid) I was in my younger days. Disillusioned by the many people in my life and committed too many mistakes. If I took caution and was less careless, all the series of heart shattering drama wouldn't have occured. Since it's now too late to turn back in time and undo everything, I shall bravely face all of those life lessons and let them serve as a reminder to me.

Right now, at this point, I should stop looking back and start embracing the future with K. Love you very much.

S

'fight for love'

2010-06-29T07:55:00.003+08:00

funny how events of late keep revolve around this sentence i've said...

'there is no need to determine right or wrong. the crux is this: so long as you and the other party feels uncomfortable, you probably shouldn't have done it at all'.

on a really random note, G's words reminded me of a belief which i stopped believing in long ago. it was a faith i used to hold so dearly in me, an encouragement that kept me going. maybe i should start adopting the belief again. only if it's all worth it.

2010-06-28T21:05:00.003+08:00

it's like every thought in me battling against each other.

2010-06-18T22:08:00.002+08:00

hello to whoever-that-is-reading,

i'm extremely exhausted. every bit of me is drained and jaded be it mentally or physically. the only thing that has been keeping me going is the emotional aspect of my life. being happy has granted me an endless source of energy. that aside, it's supposed to be rest time now but i'm still making use of every bit of my time to do things (er, like blogging?) so, it's been like that since i-fon't-know-when, and after a few days of self denial and mind battles, i have come to terms that i'm conformed to the beat of the society - fast paced, tense and everything else that has got to do with urban life. okay, i can totally see myself as a workaholic in no time to come.

this entry is so incoherent, not much point to it but perfect evidence of me making use of my time.

ciao, off to see hayley for another long night ahead!

scarlett

2010-06-16T08:36:00.001+08:00

i may be a hard worker, but that doesn't mean you can take advantage of me

2010-06-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we’d have to go through
Now here we are, I’m suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope, you were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

2010-06-09T21:21:00.003+08:00

what can I say? i'm jaded.

Mr Kiat

2010-06-07T21:10:00.001+08:00

2010-06-06T11:23:00.000+08:00

i think i've got myself the best boyf ever!

2010-05-31T22:08:00.000+08:00

i just want to thank you for everything. and i really mean, everything.

2010-05-30T23:08:00.002+08:00

realising i can't escape and live in delusion, pricked me so hard.

2010-05-26T23:22:00.001+08:00

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

-Vanilla Twilight

2010-05-23T23:19:00.003+08:00

because recently, butterflies come to me, nearly scentless flowers still smells good to me, rain incredibly made me smile, food-less home became food-full home, ever piling schoolwork no longer bothers me, late nights became the best time ever, even lethargy all seemed to transform and become my source of energy, because, because... life has never been better.

2010-05-19T08:09:00.000+08:00

imma happy girl everyday.
everyday happy girl!

2010-05-17T22:57:00.000+08:00

If i told you things i did before, told you how i used to be
Would you go along with someone like me?
If you knew my story word for word, had all of my history
Would you go along with someone like me?

2010-05-15T23:04:00.002+08:00

To be building strong defence and never letting guard down, it's tough.
To attempt to be less defensive, it's even tougher.

I tried to keep my skepticism in control, only to be proved wrong time and again. Don't you sometimes agree that such is the nature of mankind - tainted and imperfect? The ugly reflection of human has left me jaded like never before.

Perhaps, perhaps, there's an underlying message, implying that I should probably prepare myself and lead a life of solitude. I've already acknowledge that it's better being alone -only then will I be able to free myself from the world. Worldly affairs and desires, more than willing to be without.

2010-05-11T00:35:00.000+08:00

this week's time management = failure.

2010-05-10T01:14:00.002+08:00

tonight, i marvel at the twists and turns of fate.

2010-05-05T08:50:00.003+08:00

one of these days, i hope you'll feel better.

and again, to all those people, who are still spying me or even attempt to interrogate me, my conscience is clear. i do not owe anybody any explanation at all. you guys have no right to question me about my life too. who are you to comment on my life or on the people i hang out with?

here's a warning, that night's my last straw.

It's gonna hurt when it heals

2010-04-29T00:21:00.001+08:00

everybody's telling me to lead my life right, but it never occured to them that it wasn't wrong to begin with. I have been living half my life doing whats expected of me. It is really time I live my life right, in the way I want it to.

2010-04-25T16:38:00.002+08:00

me: what time are we meeting?
sis: like now?
me: like no?

i'm still exhausted and dehydrated like anything. last night kryshelle and me were so thirsty that we drank 'toilet water'. haha! but like, who cares?

everyday i'm just trying to fill my mind and fill my time, which is a good thing cos it stops me from thinking all other strayed thoughts.

on a sidenote, having a credit card has really taken a toll on me, fear of overspending and everything. and sometimes surviving solely on it. and so the bill came and right now, i'm officially a credit card slave. thank God mom didn't get me two the other time.

2010-04-16T00:43:00.000+08:00

lately, i have been feeling rather blue.............

be my band aid

2010-04-10T20:50:00.003+08:00

there's a huge chapter in my life, of which whenever i flip open and look back, i find that it was a huge ridicule and wastage of my time.

and to even suffer the consequences after all that? worse. should never have let it happened at all. it was indeed within my means but i was selfish and childish then.

now i'm filled with regrets which might haunt me forever.

said to change and make it up for whatever i did, i really did. but the seedlings ain't growing.

maybe karma is back to bite me.

2010-04-04T23:37:00.002+08:00

The greatest blessing - to have everyone I love and everyone who loves me to be around me.

Thank God.

Lies

2010-03-07T00:32:00.000+08:00

Cos a friend wouldn't

2010-02-13T12:54:00.000+08:00

i really should have known.

two two faced? too too faced? too two faced!

2010-02-03T09:57:00.001+08:00

you this too-two-faced

2010-02-02T10:35:00.000+08:00

'Hey, so I gotta question
Do you wanna have a slumber party in my basement?
Do I make your heart beat like an 808 drum?
Is my love, uh your drug?
Your drug, uh your drug
Uh your drug is my love, your drug?'

- your love is my drug by kesha

2010-02-01T20:21:00.002+08:00

i'm so grossed out from all the mugging i swear i'm feeling nausesous.

I wish that there was more meaning to study - well, wouldn't say i dislike studying because i truly appreciate the chance given to me to study in a peaceful country. This just isn't something everyone is entitled to and with all the gratefulness i thank the Almighty. Nevertheless, sometimes i secretly wished that there was a tact bit more meaning to studying. Recently, have been increasingly finding myself studying just to live up to the society's expectations. Though i may have no wish to be conformed by this world, it is apparent that no escape is possible but can only to be slowly roped in. Then again, i know that if i don't do my part, i will surely regret later on in life. And amongst all the complaints and rantings, I will still acknowledge that education is essential and will definitely do my best for the years to come.

nice song (:

2010-01-31T22:27:00.000+08:00

once upon a time
an angel in the sky
made comfort every night

once upon a time
the angel loved me so
it's a miracle in the snow, my heart won't be cold

my dear,you are my angel
tell me what you know
something should be told

my dear,you are my angel
tell me where you go
i will breathe behind your love.

once upon a time
my angel give me a life

nobody but me

2010-01-26T22:42:00.002+08:00

maybe this time round, i am truly done and over with this whole deal about relationships. i know i do sound a little skeptical, but love is indeed a bittersweet experience. so once again, is back to me and only me.

i would be lying if i said i wasn't upset, especially after 26 months of love, effort, time and memories. however, i am truly exhausted and drained out from all of the problems we're going through. i believe this is the same for him as well. maintaining such long and quarrelsome relationship is tough. and at this very moment, i've experienced some sort of carefreeness which i've not tasted for long. yet, this feeling is strangely out of place within myself. what an ironical existance. i expected it to quench my thirst for carefreeness but it didn't.

maybe when all of the wounds have recovered, i will feel the carefreeness i ought to be feeling. but as of now and the near future, there won't be any recovery till all troubled spirits are lifted.

as for now, i will slowly recuperate my broken heart and rejuvenate my tired soul. it has been too much for far too long. only thing is, i will be all alone by myself now.

on a side note, today i felt very strongly that i'm destined to be a loner. the final break-up plus the recent subtle ending of a friendship really proved me right.

2010-01-11T00:21:00.002+08:00

Scarlett is a sassy spitfire!

2009-12-20T22:57:00.002+08:00

oh, tranquility, tranquility...
come to me for I need

2009-11-05T23:40:00.002+08:00

i have a confession.

i know the fact that i am not pretty and all. but sometimes i realise i'm secretly doing bimbotic stuff. like stoning for half an hour to decide on what to wear/thinking when is the next manicure session/next make up spree/and almost everything that a bimbo can ever think of

but i'm worse than a bimbo cos a bimbo has looks. me?

no looks no brains.

):!

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there is something about you that I can never understand. like how you can ever succeed in putting up such an ideal image though deep down you are rotten to the core.

2009-10-28T21:28:00.002+08:00

it is hard to build love. it is easy to tear down.

2009-10-25T20:41:00.002+08:00

it is 8:42pm and i'm sleepy already. have been sleeping a lot over the weekends. school's the culprit for draining away all my energy.

oh, why am i Miss Extreme?

2009-10-25T14:40:00.000+08:00

can't wait for friday. the ultimate halloween!

2009-10-19T00:01:00.002+08:00

Friday was last day of ELDC and i can only say that I miss my friends there!

Friday night was crazy night with e2 girls. All the acting singing and bitching.

Tomorrow marks Sem 2 Day 1. Dreadful enough to kill me.

Over the past week, I caught 3 movies.

I like 2 of them. The last I caught was Pandorum and it was a show I couldn't really understand.

I am tiredddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd and i need slumber now.

2009-10-12T22:37:00.003+08:00

because i need to feel safe like never before.

i'm in a vicious cycle - i think optimistically in the day, and in the night, i think otherwise. Day and night the cycle repeats it is like shackles on my feet. As much as I try to lift them off, I couldn't do so and sometimes it really doesn't seem to be possible at all. Those thoughts, oh they do weigh my mind down so very. I can't seem to get rid of them in any way - how I wish that I could have selective short-term memory so that I just chuck them away in a far away land or something. But no, they always come back to haunt me every moment and then. Sometimes, I get so paranoid while other times it just makes me feel cold...

those scars, they're still as fresh as yesterday and when I'm reminded of them, they ignite and burn intensely across my heart again.

on a slightly happier note, I am working on it (painstakingly) and anticipating the day to declare my own happiness.

2009-10-09T00:49:00.001+08:00

oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day

2009-10-07T09:59:00.003+08:00

ohmygosh. gonna resume to normal schooling days. good thing or bad thing?

anyone wants things from miss selfridge/dorothy perkins/topshop/topman/warehouse? tell me!

2009-09-29T00:02:00.003+08:00

2009-09-24T18:16:00.002+08:00

I really want a nice long day at my favourite place with the wind gently brushing my face while I'll sip on my favourite drink and read novels. And when I'm tired, I can turn to find a shoulder for me to lean and nap. And when I'm energetic, there'll be phototaking sessions and purely childhood games...

i love.

2009-09-21T00:17:00.002+08:00

One of the recollections I can make from my teenage life would be how I hogged the phone for no reason every day and night. There were the times my friends and I held conferences on the phone when we can talk through the afternoon and right into the night. That was how we spent our days whenever we're at home. And it's not like we exactly have anything to talk about... sometimes we talk like we're on repeat mode. It was funny how we did that... haha, young teens, the adults would say.

Over the later years, it was slowly revealed to me why my parents and almost every adult would just nag whenever kids spend so much time on the phone. The precious time wasted is one thing (cos they'd rather we spend the time on studying), the phone bills, and I guess, the whole idea on building a real conversation as well? Like, why talk on the phone when you want to talk? Real conversations takes place when you're face-to-face, isn't it?

Technology... Does it brings people closer or drives people further apart?

2009-09-16T00:25:00.001+08:00

The Scout.

Gwen! Do you still remember The Scout? Hee!

2009-09-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

C: I was a coward running away again. But everywhere I went, you caught up with me. So I had to come back.
B: I want to believe you, but I can't. You've hurt me too many times.
C: Then believe me this time.
B: That's it?
C: [pauses] I love you, too. (they kiss)
B: Can you say it twice? (laughs) No, I'm serious, say it twice.
C: I love you, I love you, I love you. (kissing)

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. That was so sweet and I really can't wait for GG S3

2009-09-06T23:20:00.002+08:00

me: we're like their enemies but they are not fit to be ours. we're waaaaaaaay cooler.
jy: (laughs and she said something damn hilarious!!!)
me: it's true what! who are we and who are they
hayley: hl, i just feel like pointing The Finger at you!

You know, sometimes I just love what my mouth can says. It feels so good to be mean to certain people.

mochi

2009-08-31T23:59:00.003+08:00

such a sweet little baby!

nice souppppppppppppppppppppppppp

2009-08-29T00:32:00.001+08:00

worthless but not me

strongirl

2009-08-26T23:55:00.001+08:00

I will do just as fine because this is me and I am He Huiling.

2009-08-26T17:19:00.001+08:00

going crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

somebody help me with adobe cs4.....................................

)':

2009-08-23T17:00:00.002+08:00

when i'm home i...

-lazy to bathe
-lazy to buy food for myself
-pour water also
-want to sleep but won't
-glue my eyes to the computer and at a very close distance
-get so bored i go nuts

17 nov 07 our first date

2009-08-19T20:59:00.001+08:00

fucked up life, fucked up people, fucked up school and fucked up part-time job.

<3

2009-08-02T15:48:00.007+08:00

1st birthday cakeThis is my surprise! Pretty yeah?Make a wish!

Woo, cried during my 2nd surprise!My birthday present from the NYP girls Card done by them (:Simple celebration at home (:
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Yesterday was the most surprising celebration cos I had a really weird mixture of feelings - shocked, surprised, confused, touched, happy and cheated! bitchzing said she need to go get something at Raffles Town Club before going to H's house. When we reached there, I was still saying...'Your friend rich sia, stay at suite!' It turns out that Gwen was in the room when Bitch pressed the doorbell! The next thing I know is that the rest of the 6 girls started singing birthday song to me!
Surprise from my favourite girls in the world! Nice card by G.Guitarist for the birthday song!Thanks Gwennie for booking the suite!My bitch! She's the one that can really lie well la!!!

A mega jacuzzi! Almost all 9 of us were in there!Look at what 9 girls can do...Balloons and washroomKinda grand huh...
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THANK YOU EVERYBODY ONCE AGAIN! I LOVE Y'ALL VERY MUCH!!!

18 once more!

2009-07-31T02:04:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to me!

me: yay i'm 18 once again
hb: huh? 18?
me: ya what, 18 once again
hb: stop lying to yourself
me: (silence!)

anyway, i had 4 cakes so far. adeline says according to superstitions, one cannot have more than 3 cakes. opps! but i kinda like it cos... i get to make wishes! what to know what i wished for?

1st cake: wish for 100 more wishes
2nd cake: wish for 200 more wishes
3rd cake: wish for 300 more wishes
4th cake: wish for 400 more wishes

so total i have a total of 1000 wishes! and guess what, i intend to wish for the actual thing first, then i will make another wish for my first wish to come true! so if i wish for a bag, i will go like...

'i wish for a bag!' next, i will make another wish by saying... 'please make my previous wish come true!' and guess what everyone said about my wishes?

'you damn greedy!' HAHAHA! but really, how can any one ever get enough of wishes!

anyway, here's a tribute to everyone who wished me, everyone who planned surprises for me, everyone who bought me cards/presents (especially the bikini!) and everyone who came all the way just for my birthday!

a million of XOXO for everyone! XOXO!

2009-07-23T17:51:00.001+08:00

is it too late to book a hotel room now? because i suddenly want my birthday to be at a boutique hotel!

2009-07-19T23:56:00.001+08:00

first time see you play bball, honey!
friday night was slumber night with the girls. crazy dancing and heart to heart talks. i love!
life has been quite bad but hope it will turn for the better.

2009-07-15T20:43:00.000+08:00

total failure

2009-07-14T20:02:00.001+08:00

july and august had never been good months. the same for this year

2009-07-14T13:18:00.000+08:00

that side unveils again and i hate it.

2009-07-09T21:52:00.001+08:00

i feel so upset

2009-07-09T00:24:00.000+08:00

I see no wrong.

2009-07-06T22:58:00.002+08:00

just came home from bsc's first steamboat. am really glad that everyone of us are getting along so well!

pictures up on FB! but waiting for more to come from lina.

hello, do remember that you're not the only one so stop wallowing in self-pity. oh may i also remind you that you brought them upon yourself? so stop stop STOP throwing your tantrums like a little kid.

sigh

2009-07-05T23:31:00.002+08:00

for the longest of time, i've been living in self-denial.

tonight was a pretty stressful night touching up on the competition report. it is finally coming to an end for real and i certainly do hope that it will be rewarding. so since i reached home and until now, i haven't spoken to HB at all... because i was busy rushing and then when i am done, he is asleep already ): don't know why but there's this guilt in me. oh well, thank you for staying by my side.

life in school now is pretty much mundane but very thankful for happy and nice people there. they make my time pass faster... and that's all i really need.

turning 19 in another 25 days. i'm kinda upset about it. why can't i stay as a baby forever?

2009-06-25T23:25:00.002+08:00

If i told you things i did before
told you how i used to be
Would you go along with someone like me
If you knew my story word for word
had all of my history
Would you go along with someone like me

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Many of us believe that wrongs aren't wrong if it's done by 'nice' people.

The statement is so true and it disgusts me TOTALLY. Whether are you the 'many of us' or the 'nice people', if you're one of them, you simply just disgusts me from head to toe, left to right.

summer's in your heart.

2009-06-24T10:51:00.002+08:00

9am-5.30pm: NYP
6.30pm: Tuition
9pm: Home

and the routine continues everyday until Friday. WHEN CAN I COMPLETE MY GOSSIP GIRL S2?!!??!?!

29th June - deadline for Nestle marketing competition.

Saving up saving up!!!

Red red camera

2009-06-14T10:52:00.002+08:00

OH YESSSSSS! I bought my camera and a hard disk at the PC show yesterday! I really love my camera to the max!!!

I thought you're a female!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-11T23:48:00.004+08:00

Today I went on a shopping spree with Hayley. It's true when you put your mind saying 'i want this, i want that', you will never get it. We went by the impromptu method this time round and it freaking works! So, bear that in mind the next time you go shopping! some of my favourite buys were the (my first ever) romper and another pair of oxfords (but heels).

Me: PS got your Springfield.
Hayley: Huh? What? Spring feel?
Me: Springfield, field.
Hayley: No, there aren't any flowers there.
Me: Huh? SPRINGFIELD LEH.

both burst out laughing.

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Tomorrow will be like the last stage for the marketing competition. Talking about tomorrow, i've got TWO steamboats within 6 hours... OHMYGOD. I am already growing pretty much cos i can't exercise ): oh well, honeybunny, you better love me still. HAHAHAHAHA!

Come this Saturday, I will venture bravely into the IT fair together with the massive crowd. Let's hope the camera will still be there and the queue will not be thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat long.

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I am seriously neglecting this space cos i'm so busy being me and being my other online persona.

forgetful

2009-06-09T20:40:00.002+08:00

I am already forgetful enough and now i'm even more forgetful somebody tell me how to get a memory boost oh my god

2009-06-09T11:55:00.002+08:00

i want a nice simple blazer! where can i get it?! but i am so fussy about it. i don't want it to look formal, material must be cooling, not those longgg kind, best if it is three quarter sleeved. haha, i am so fussy i know and i know you knew that i'm fussy long ago.

my birthday is coming..................... and it is scary.......................... but thank God last year i made a wish and the wish is to stay 18 forever. HAHAHAHA!

anyway, i've got 1.5 months left as an 18.

you dumdum give me gumgum

2009-05-31T20:11:00.003+08:00

- watched Night at the Museum 2 with G and H! It was good!
- came home to watch Night at the Museum 1! It was good too!
- I am so stupid to watch 2 first then 1.
- Today is last day of Miss Selfridge sales!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Almost wanted to try walking home from town this AFTERNOON
- Didn't cause my 'auntie' came so suddenly!!!
- I've many many pictures to upload!!!
- I want to invite some of my family members to celebrate my birthday with me
- Those family members who come uninvited will be sent out. HAHA
- Hope mom buys me hard disk and IPT during this coming IT fair!
- I haven't requested for her to get anything for me this year!
- So this is going to be the first time this year and the last time this year
- Hooked on this korean show
- Everyone hates me now cause of the competition ):
- And I can't believe we really joined and in the midst of it now!!!
- I WANNA GO CLUBBING.
- But i don't want to go to a club flooded with people of my age or younger than me - ewww!
- I still like DBL-O.
- Thanks Zing for introducing DBL-O to me back then!!!
- Meet you(Zing) when I'm rich again.
- And yes, shopping again!!! :D
- I told boyf that I will pass him $250 every month for safekeeping cos I don't want to misuse my money away - saving it for a good bag!
- Then now how to buy all my make-up??!?!?!!?!
- By now you would have realised I can't blog properly anymore!

BYE PEEPO. LAO NIANG IS VERY BUSY. NO TIME FOR YOU!!!

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2009-05-22T08:17:00.003+08:00

THE BBQ AND PHYSIO WENT GREATTTTTTTTT.

i like what i did for physio today!

I AM GODDAMN IRRITATED

2009-05-19T09:23:00.002+08:00

I HATE IT WHEN YOU FUCKING NAG AT ME NAG AT WHAT I DO AND THEN JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS ABOUT EVERYTHING I FUCKING HATE IT TO THE MAX MY GOD! I DON'T NEED YOU TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO OR WHAT NOT TO DO BECAUSE I'VE SPENT 19 YEARS ON THIS BLOODY EARTH AND I BELIEVE I CAN DIFFERENTIATE RIGHT AND WRONG VERY WELL SO PLEASE STOP ALL YOUR UNECESSARY NAGGINGS BECAUSE I DON'T NEED THEM AND NEVER WILL. I'VE MY CHOICE. THE LIBERTY WHICH I FULLY DESERVEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

and rightttttttttttttttttttt. yesterday i spent a quite a mini bomb at the DRX again. OHMYGOD. I WANT EVERY ALLERGY/PAIN OF MINE TO DISAPPPEAR SO I WON'T HAVE TO PAY FOR ALL THESE UNWANTED AILMENTS EVER AGAIN.

i must i must i must i must NOT THINK ABOUT THAT MISS SELFRIDGE LONG SKIRT... IT'S BEEN ON MY FUCKING MIND FOR FUCKING DAYS EVER SINCE I SAW IT THAT DAY. TOLD MYSELF I CAN FIND SOMETHING NICE TOO ELSEWHERE BUT APPARENTLY, GOT ANY SHOPS AS NICE AS MISS SELFRIDGE MEH!

ps: my money must be safely kept for honey's present next month!

POUTS!

2009-05-18T09:24:00.002+08:00

very sian to go all the way to town to see my skin doctor with a make-up free face!!! somemore going to rain really heavily soon!!! where should i alight so that i won't have to walk in the rain??? omg... somemore have to go back to school for projects! why isn't my holidays like a decent holiday???

TOMORROW LAO NIANG IS GOING OUT WITH ZINGYYYYYY <3

will update later!

lame

2009-05-12T08:50:00.002+08:00

mum: eh! that nasi lemak(mas selamat) catch already ah?
me: (think hard) oh! ya!
sister: (laughs) kena caught by ikan bilis!

ps: my mum couldn't remember the name fully and she anyhow said nasi lemak.

LOL!

2009-05-07T23:19:00.001+08:00

somebody give me a santa claus this year...
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i want them also.

unfaithful

2009-05-06T23:45:00.002+08:00

everyone's definition of unfaithful varies. personally, i'm really against any form of it. to me, anything that you do behind your partner's back and feel that he/she will be upset when they find out is wrong. so would it have matter whether it was a physical/mental/spiritual affair? and for the active social networkers, cyber or not, does it make a difference?

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and here are what some people said-no names mentioned...

'the furthest i went with her is heavy petting. i didn't even have sex with her. so it is not an affair.'
then did your dick stand when you pet with her!? your dick is a cheap dick!

'i think adding people online is perfectly normal. just make friends only what.'
then what was your intention of adding them? if there is a sincere girl who wants to make friends with you but she is damn fat, damn greasy, damn dirty, damn smelly and damn ugly, will you? 'just make friends only what!'

'i just wanted to have a kick - 'fresh' things. but i still love her in my heart what!'
bloody hell, you think your girlfriend fish ah! fresh or not fresh. and if you can hurt her like that, you don't love her at all.

pss: red = my comments.

first post made in public

2009-05-05T11:18:00.002+08:00

blogging from SGH - currently waiting for my turn at the pharmacy. it is taking so long and thank God i brought the lappy along.

school's later. i can't help but to complaint... WHY IS SCHOOL 4 DAYS THIS WEEK!!!

i'm all burned(or is it burnt) out this week. hope i will not fall sick!!!

sociable or not!

2009-05-02T09:05:00.002+08:00

you know sometimes i get so anti-social i don't talk or talk the minimal i can so my silence will just blend me to the background. i am really that anti-social sometimes. people talk to me and i don't reply because i see no need to talk to them and if i ever talk to them, it makes me stupid or something. oh my god, i am so anti-social. i think i'm weird.

but then again, i remember for a long period of time, i was quite sociable. until my family couldn't stand it because either i'm out for days and nights (1 whole week's the record) or i'm home but hogging the phone all night long. they told me that they felt like my friends were my family at that time.

after a whole series of 'drama', i just grew out of it all one day! like what, no other people can win my girls and the whole time i felt like they're the ones that really contributed alot to my teenage years and only with them, i feel the most comfortable.. and it's like people out there, they're so omfg. who needs bitches when i've got girlfriends?

until now, i still find that i'm alot more toned down than the last time. maybe cos i played too much when i was younger. i don't even feel like playing at all now. i'm like so done with all those playing. all i want is just my ideal life and if you know me well enough, you'll know what's my ideal life...

with that, i think, i will still remain anti social as the way i am. i don't really care although sometimes i wish i could be a tad bit more sociable. but yeah, i think there really isn't a need for it (: